Looking for Someone
Last week my supervisor asked me if I was “looking for someone,” as in looking for someone to date. My response was a quasi-nervous chuckle and a “No, I’m really happy single.” A few days ago, my cousin & I had a discussion on dating and while she is a few years older than me, we came to similar conclusions that right now dating isn’t for us.
Honestly, I’ve never been the type to yearn for a relationship, nor have I been the type to stray from them. Like, whenever I see stuff like “He/she/sig. other completes me”, its a mystery to me. I’m a whole person by myself. Yeah I may find someone that I’m like “you know what, we fit well together”, but I’ve never felt like I need another person to feel whole. I can empathize with people & see where they’re coming from when they say that, but logically I cannot. I’m way too independent for that kind of thinking.
On the other side of that, since I started dating, the longest I have been single was for a little over a year. Sometimes people do fall into my life where I’m like “yeah, let’s keep you around” and I find myself in long-term relationships, but its never really because I’m looking for something. And even though I know that I give off a stand-offish/loner/guarded feeling to 90% of the folks I encounter (I’m trying to change that, really I am), if I find someone I vibe with, I go after it. I see what I want and I go after it- if I feel there is a mutual attraction, feel me?
Dating has always been a neutral territory for me: I never see it as a necessity, but I also don’t see it as something to avoid. I can commit to someone and I won’t stray (even if I do get a little scared, I’ve made efforts to work stuff out with my partner). I’m the type to be fine with being single and fine also be fine when I’m in a relationship with someone who digs me. But as of late, I don’t really want to be in one- no way, no how. I guess the situation would be different if I knew more people in this town (I hang out with a total of 4 people to be honest) because maybe then I would find someone I’d like, but I doubt it. Even the few other people outside of the 4 that I have encounters with don’t spark something inside of me that screams, “Be with them!”
Getting my life together, keeping up at my job and applying to school are my main priorities. Dating someone doesn’t really fit in there. I’m working on molding myself into the person I want to be, and while its fine and dandy for me to go out and have fun with folks I encounter, I don’t see myself in a relationship for a very long time. That all can change of course if I meet someone I can fit together with, but I’m so over dating right now.
Like my cousin and I talked about, this is our time to be selfish and get our shit together.
9:52 pm |
July 22 2014
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My cousin Tiff is also the Cat Whisperer. Here she is making friends with a cat I’ve never seen before in my neighborhood.
Yeah, she’s hella rad.
10:17 pm |
July 21 2014
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Lawyers for two Guantanamo Bay detainees cited the Hobby Lobby decision to argue for their clients’ rights to perform prayers during Ramadan. However, federal courts have argued that the detainees didn’t qualify as persons under the Religious Freedom Restoration Act. Wow.
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9:32 pm |
July 21 2014
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So my cousin Tiff is the coolest person you’ll ever meet- I’ve talked about her quite a few times on here. This weekend my familia came over and my cousin handed me this package as a graduation gift.
Flashback about 10 years ago, I bought a slingshot off Amazon which I used about 5 times before she accidentally broke it. Being a kid, I made a big fuss of it and wouldn’t let it go. Flashback about 8 years ago when my home life was hella unstable, I gave her some of my favorite possessions to hold onto for me; ie., my Harry Potter novels.
This weekend not only did she return the Potter novels that I gave her, but she used the pages from my tattered copy of The Prisoner of Azkaban to wrap my gift (she purchased me a new copy of course). The gift inside the wrapping paper?
Seriously, that girl is the best. It’s been years since that old slingshot I had and she purchased me a new one as if it was yesterday. It’s been a few months since we talked about using old books that you’ve replaced as wrapping paper. This gift is one of the most sentimental gifts that I’ve ever received because she remembered something dear to me and in reference to the Potter novels, dear to both of us. Man I love that girl.
9:20 pm |
July 21 2014
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“Never allow your enemies to educate your children.”
Malcolm X (via delucazade)
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10:49 pm |
July 20 2014
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I got to drive my cousins Hyundai Genesis this weekend and it is by far the fanciest car I will ever drive. Coming from someone who learned to drive in a ‘95 Chevy, driving this was like driving in a spaceship. Between the steering wheel that adjusted to your lap, the automatic start that doesn’t require a key and the rearview camera in the dashboard that aids you when in reverse, I drove as cautiously as I could so I wouldn’t scratch his baby. Hell, the stares I got from other drivers trying to get a closer look at his car made me drive even more cautiously- though I did wiggle my eyebrows at passerbys who I caught looking at his car wide-eyed.
Driving my cousin to his hotel room last night was actually the first time I had driven at night and going to pick him up this morning was the first time I had driven alone. I don’t think I would ever be able to afford a car like that nor would I need a car with that amount of luxury as a new driver, but it was fun to pretend. Even for a little.
9:16 pm |
July 20 2014
I don’t know how your day is going, but you deserve to let this Ugandan children give you life.
I AM THE GIRL IN THE PINK
I just got my life!!!!!
Yassssssssssss Go AWFFFF!!
This is so cute and awesome.
12:55 am |
July 19 2014
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I would have shit myself trying this from that height, jesuschrist
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6:29 pm |
July 18 2014
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