Now that I’ve finally gotten my shit together and am studying hard core for the GREs (I shouldn’t have let it get this far to be honest), I’m actually enjoying my studying. I know I’m in the honeymoon phase where I’m still excited to get to learn all about GRE tactics and good habits (even though the math part is kicking my arse), but I’m here for it.
I’m remembering all the shit I learned (or didn’t learn) in high school and I’m actually enjoying getting the few questions I do get right, or feeling triumphant when I use the correct formula without having to consult my book or the internet.
The thing that keeps me motivated throughout my study time and throughout the day when I go over formulas or words in my head is my own voice telling me, “I gotta get the fuck up outta here.” I’m academically inclined and sitting at my kitchen table every night to study is where I feel alive, actually. Don’t get me wrong- I enjoy my volunteer work, but there is also a part of me that needs to just fucking read a book, take notes and learn. And I love doing it.
Plus I can’t stay in this city and make a home for myself. I need to get the fuck out of here, get back to school and learn as much as I can until I get to where I want to get. The GRE is an obstacle that I have to overcome in order to get into the program I want, so I’ll just have to kick it in the face.
Even if I have to do it a few times to make sure it’s good and down.
Latino Hunger Games by Rudy Mancuso
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I finally got off my ass and began studying for the GRE’s seriously. I should have since January considering the fact that I’m not working (volunteer gig is a mere 3 days a week), I’m terrible at standardize tests, I have a nasty habit of breaking out into fits over any sort of math and most importantly, I take the exam in less than a month. While I’m still on track for my yearly plan I set back in January, I fell off the horse about 3 miles back in studying for the GRE’s.
My issue with sticking to plans is not that I don’t complete them, but rather I have a hard time prioritizing things in order of most important at the given time. I tried to remedy that this year and organized my goals of depending on where they fit in best based upon the time of the year. Overall I’m still on schedule, but by taking a closer look into what exactly I have accomplished in terms of my GRE preperation that I have set for the first quarter of the year, I’m starting to get into a bit of a frenzy- which I always end up doing.
I’m good at setting goals and sticking to them, just not at the correct or appropriate time. Its not procrastination, at least I don’t feel it is, but it more of I flip flop between doing other things on my list instead of what needs to be done RIGHT NOW. I always do this and I thought writing out my list and seriously analyzing to place my subgoals in time appropriate space would help me to stop doing this, but it hasn’t. Not that much.
So I’ve taken to speaking my goals in the air. Saying them aloud every day and writing them down on my wash board in my room to remind myself to do one fucking thing at a time and not to jump around from item to item to item like a maniac. Hopefully this will help.
On the bright side, studying for the GRE’s wasn’t as bad as I thought. Yeah, I struggled with the math section a bit, but I got war flashbacks of High School that did help kickstart some topics and formulas buried deep in my brain. I know with practice, I’ll be alright.